You may truly be suffering from buyer’s remorse but sometimes it’s just the culmination of both self-doubt and greed- ie feeling as though you don’t really deserve such pleasure for whatever inane reason, missing the thrill of the chase and wondering if you can get this, what else is in store which could be bigger n better.
Shorty asked me to be his girlfriend on Friday night/early hours of Saturday morning. Yes, I know I should just live in the moment and enjoy this. But please just indulge me for a sec….
No question about it, I’m hella flattered. I did not see it coming though. That nigga lives for suprising me, I swear. I never really know how he’s gonna act, react, respond. It keeps me on my toes, I guess. And very independent in thought. I couldn’t try impress him even if I tried coz I never know where his head is at. Plus, that just ain’t my steez. He likes that. He said he is looking for somebody to keep him grounded… And um it appears that I’m the only one in the running coz he knows that many chicks that holla at him are doing it for superficial reasons. I know right, also shock-ed that he knows as much… Not jus a cutie… … continue reading this entry.